I took some time this AM to get started on the exercise…drawing my gremlin/nasty voice from my head.
What I discovered, is the initial drawings (images from my dreams, visions I saw after giving birth to my children (scary, but fascinating), and more recent dreams all had male figures, shape-shifters, disappearing and re-appearing images, black and white, shadows, angels/devils/gargoyles, half-formed creatures…these images actually, I have discovered, are here to help me somehow. I drew and wrote on all of my rememberences…and was relieved to discover this.
As for the next page, I wrote and wrote about the nasty voice in my head, the one who tells me I am not good enough…blah, blah, blah…it is a SHE (bitch) and very nasty. forked tongue, firey, sharp nails, beautiful (she believes), red-haired (not sure why), coifed (sp?), buggy-red bloodshot eyes…I have drawn her, colored her in, and enclosed her in an actual glass bottle…with a lid…funny thing, I had the actual lid to the bottle, but cannot locate it minutes after I brought it to my work space…but, I have sealed the bottle with heavy foil…a rubber band and a lovely golden bow…and put her into the cupboard! so there!!!!
Now I am starting to see which are the helpful, cautious voices, which are the bitchy nasty voices, and which are the voices from actual humans with whom I interact while awake.